His Grace Is Sufficientbeejayzgang | February 12th, 2008 @ 12:50 pm
and His mercies are new every morning. This is all I can lean on right now. I am so far beyond myself, which is really hard, but I know that’s just where He wants me to be. We’re not getting much schooling done right now. We’re watching far too much tv. And I’m struggling with guilt for it. But I am going to choose to turn to His grace to cover my failings, and trust that even though it doesn’t feel like it, He does care about me in the midst of this struggle. I feel like if I could just have a few days of sleep, so many things would improve. And yet, the more I pray the worse it gets. I hate it. I try to trust. And yet when I pray, if Damara actually sleeps, then I have one, if not two or more kids up through the night. I have been struggling with anger, and feeling let down. Why bother praying? BUT, even though this is how I FEEL, I am making a choice to keep walking. I don’t want to. I want to quit. I’m so out of control emotionally, and just weary in every aspect of myself. But I will choose to bring my will into submission; my emotions and my body as well. I am desperate, and beyond delirious at times. Even though I’m not sure I believe it right now, I will continue to tell myself His Grace is sufficient.
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Carrie
said,
February 12, 2008 at 12:57 pm
I’ll be praying for you- it sounds like you’re having a tough time, and I know being tired makes everything so much harder to deal with. Keep hanging on to Him.
Rachael
said,
February 12, 2008 at 2:26 pm
Oh Betty-Jo!! I’m so sorry you are feeling so discouraged and even unravelled right now. And I’m so sorry I can’t be there just to listen and give you a shoulder to lean/cry on. ((((((((((((((((((((((((BEEJ))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I understand how hard it can be to operate daily when you are tired. I’ll keep you in my prayers and my mom will also be praying for you. She askes regularly about how you are. Just wondering….have you opened your bag “in case of emergency”, I think now qualifies. Keep your chin up and don’t ever let go of your faith in HIm!
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February 12, 2008 at 3:46 pm
Do what you gotta do to get through.
Lisa
said,
February 13, 2008 at 11:52 am
Hi Betty Jo. :o) I found your blog through the Homeschool blog, so I thought I would stop by. So sorry to hear that you are having a hard time right now. :o( If there is anything I can do to help just call as I am not too far away. :o) Take care & I will keep you in my prayers. (((HUGS)))