How does time get away so easily?  It’s been a week since I last posted.  Seems impossible.

I have been busy, though.  Still no decorations up to speak of.  I’m trying to motivate myself to do it, but I am really struggling.  I want the house to be festive for our day together with family.  But it’s a big thing right now.   

I’m dealing with post-partum depression.  I don’t remember if I’ve mentioned that before, and I don’t have time to scan through.  The dr. also suspects I have SAD, Seasonal Affective Disorder.  These things make it hard to want to do much - I’d rather just settle down for a long winter’s nap, thank you very much.  I was doing better through the summer and early fall.  I am on medication, but have just changed to a different one.  I changed because of side effects, but I know someone who said she’s on the same one, and it gave her lots of energy.  Like enough that she had to take it in the morning, or she wouldn’t sleep at night.  I could use that.

 So, if you think of me during our extra long winter this year, say a prayer for me.  Life isn’t bleak, but I’m not facing it with huge amounts of enthusiasm at this point.  It was hard for me to admit I needed help, but I’m glad I did.  Three weeks post-partum, and I was NOT coping like I had after other babies.  I had great medical staff who talked to me, and helped me swallow my pride, and realize it’s an illness that I can’t control, and it’s not my fault. 

And if you’re ever in the area, come see me!  I need the interaction.